My week, and weekend, failed to go as I wanted, and now it’s Monday and the whole nasty ride starts over again. That’s all right. This week will go better, right?
I’m crampy and bloated, so my weight is still holding steady at 24 pounds lost (though I was down two more Saturday before my Time of the Month decided to make an early appearance after an absolutely sick, killer bike ride that evening that left me very, very proud of myself) but hopefully I’m down a couple over the week.
During the past month, I found myself occasionally sorting through old photos. I found a couple of myself, then tucked them back away, but now I think I’m going to go and dig some old shitty photos of myself out. One photo blew my mind and I found myself thinking, “Wow… I must have been much heavier than I thought.” I showed it to my best friend and made the same comment, and he kinda nodded rather darkly and muttered pointedly, “Mm-hmm.“
I suspect I’m down at least 50 pounds from my heaviest, maybe more, but I managed to go three or four years without ever having a physical or getting weighed at all, so I’ll never know.
I plan to take these horrible old shots of me and make a montage and put them up next to the bathroom mirror.
In the last week, my face has begun changing even if my weight’s kind of holding still, which tells me I’m on the verge of making big changes again… gearing up, as it were. But my face is getting defined, showing toning. My eyes and lips look bigger as the fat recedes. My complexion’s ruddy and healthy, my tone of skin looks great. This is a cute chick staring back at me, a cute chick that’s getting more smiles from the boys on the street, too.
And the girl in those photos… wow, not even close. Not even close. How did I get like that? That’s what I’m trying to figure out now, I’m trying to work through the emotional side of eating and figure out why there’s still some emotional reward for me behind latenight snacking and that sort of thing, and I’m having trouble tapping into that. I need the old, shitty images of me up on the wall so I can look at them, look at the new me, and say “I’ve done THIS.“
Whatever. I like who I’m seeing in the mirror, and clothes I haven’t worn in months are looking great these days, loose in all the right places… and I’m so pleased.
Still, it’s Monday. Five days to the weekend. And while I got not much for you right now, these fine folks have plenty for you to read. Enjoy the Sugasm:
The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them.
This Week’s Picks
Up Your Bum
“Now, every mainstream porn film seems to include anal sex as part of the sequence”
A Moment Captured
“Right now I am looking out down at the street from my window and my fingers have found their way to my soft wet labia.”
Things Every Man Should Own/Know/Hear
“You can also give the controller to her, or use it yourself, and play with the power of the vibrations.”
Mr. Sugasm Himself (one from the vaults)
The New York Times’ Best Porn Articles
Editor’s Choice
Feminist Carnival of Sexual Freedom and Autonomy #1
See also: Fleshbot’s Sex Blog Roundup each Tuesday and Friday.
(Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above within a week. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.)
BDSM & Fetish
Coming Over
Counting the days
How Much Pain Can You Take?
Kinkfest 2008 Report
Need – Part II.
Piss off
Pride Cometh
The Punishment List – F/m Spanking Video
Spanking and wanking
Subordinate, me
Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Fear of Rejection
Let’s talk about being bi
Sally Kern Does NOT Speak For Me (Redux)
When it all went horribly wrong…
Why I Enjoy Public Sex
Why Marriage?
NSFW Pics, Videos & Audio
Blonde MILF is pounded hard in Gangbang
Grenian | Cikita
Pornsaint Nico Elise
Sexy Brunette Domino
Vanessa – Flower Power
Sex News, Reviews & Interviews
April Is Orgasm Month!
Catalina loves The Bondage Awards
Chanta Rose Dominates Mz. Berlin And Sabrina Fox On Chanta’s Bitches
eXcessica! (Calling All Writers…)
Fetish Model Wenona In Predicament and Suffocation Bondage on Water Bondage
Kicking Consent at Podophila
Some Positive News for Camgirls
Spray-On Condom in a Can
Weighting for a Great CBT Toy
Sex Work
The Dirty Nasty Truth
One Week Later…
The Porn Dilemma – Sometimes Forums Make Me Mad
Erotic Writing and Experiences
Captivating the college girl part two
Crush
Filling her up with my fingers
Garden Variety
Mine
My New York Indiscretion: The Conclusion
Twisted Tongue Dreams and Tongue Twister Scenes
