Category Archives: Being me

Mar
18
2010

Of Monsters and Writers and Closets, OH MY

Heady morning on a beautiful sunny Thursday, but it’s my Friday afore a three-day weekend to be crammed with writing so I get the big bookwritin’ ball rolling fast.
I’m realizing the magnitude of the hill I’ll have to climb to write this book, more and more. But it’s okay. I’m also realizing I’m pretty tough [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Dimestore Philosophy, writing | Comments (3)
Mar
15
2010

The New Way Things Work

Hi. I’m Steff. I’ll be your… book author?
Hmm! Interrrrreehhhssting.
Yeah, okay, so I’m getting off my ass and writing that book I’ve always dreamed I’d write. I’m being ballsy and telling EVERYONE I’m doing it so that a) people understand the changes that need to transpire for me to reach that life dream, and b) so [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy | Comments (1)
Feb
26
2010

The Dark Side: A Brief Look At My Descent

Today, Andrew Koenig, a respected stand-up comedian and former “background” star in Growing Pains, was found dead, having committed suicide, and not too far from the happy Olympicky goings-on here in Vancouver.
Depression was known to plague Koenig. He got off his anti-depressants sometime last year, and clearly the rest is a story still developing.
I’ve been [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Life 101, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Psychology & Moods, Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Society, Specifically Steff, adhd, keeping it real | Comments (11)
Feb
20
2010

FEAR 101: I Did It.

(This is the epilogue to my prologue; written about my zipline fear-conquering I wrote before the fact, here.)
Yesterday, I stood at the top of an 8-story-tall tower, strapped into a harness, hooked onto a steel cable, and ziplined 550 feet across Vancouver’s Robson Square.
Holy shit.
I’ve had to get the news my mother was going to [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Dimestore Philosophy, Life 101, Psychology & Moods, Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Specifically Steff, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (6)
Feb
17
2010

In Case of My Death, Read

I’m familiar with fear. Oh, am I familiar with fear.
In fact, I’m not actually a person. I’m a giant ‘fraidy-cat. Yup. A pussy, wimp, gutless turd.
I do it well.

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Life 101, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Specifically Steff, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Feb
06
2010

10 Years On: Rembering My Dead Mother

I haven’t been funny in days.
I’m moody and full of vitamin-Cunt tonight.
I couldn’t figure it out.
What’s eating me? Why am I spiralling into a darker and darker place? Why do I hate the idea of attending any of the 3 parties to which I was invited tonight? Why does the idea of just being civil [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Specifically Steff, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (5)
Jan
27
2010

There’s A Post-Injury World I Live In

And it’s somewhere in between Uncertainland and Hopeville.
Most of it is of my own doing, too. Having burnt out with EVERYTHING last July, I just walked away from most of my obligations, organized  fitness, and social life. It’s been EXACTLY what I needed to do, but my back has been iffy from time to time [...]

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Jan
23
2010

A Moment of Clarity, A Project to Start

I’m at the tail-end of a ceremonial shot of Jack Daniels. I’m celebrating.
This past week, I’ve figured out a structure for my book, and the start of the order of content and how to make it marketably different from most of the non-fiction offerings out there.
I want my book to be profoundly literate. I want [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Journalling, Specifically Steff, keeping it real, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , | Comments (0)
Jan
19
2010

Why I Love My ADHD

I’m going to be writing more about ADHD over the next while. I started last week with this posting here.
Seems to me too many people are all shame-filled about their ADHD. What the fuck is that about?
Here, take your stereotypes and shove it. Know what my ADHD doesn’t make me do? It doesn’t make [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Education, Journalling, Specifically Steff, Twitter, Uncategorized, adhd, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (5)
Jan
14
2010

In Which Steff Talks About Her ADHD

I found out last Friday that my company’s letting us work from home when the Winter Olympics rolls into town in a couple weeks. My office is in the thick of Olympics Central in downtown Vancouver, between the major “live event” locations and all the sports stadiums. I was already having panic attacks about getting [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Hygiene & Health, Journalling, Specifically Steff, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (12)
Jan
08
2010

From There to Here

In 2007, I spent 7 months working for a toxic employer.
By the time I left my job, I was close to the highest I’ve ever weighed, at my most negative and always whining, feeling sorry for myself, and feeling pretty hopeless about everything, especially about writing, which I’d been sucking at for nearly a year [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Specifically Steff, existentialism, keeping it real, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Dec
17
2009

Writing about Writing

Let me just say this before I get too far into my thoughts here:

I know Canada is small, with about 10% of the US population.
I doubt many people vote in the Canadian Blog Awards.
I’ve checked my in-box, and I’ve still not heard from the Pulitzer Committee.

And yet I’ll write this.
______________
The Canadian Blog Awards nomination for [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Specifically Steff, keeping it real, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Dec
15
2009

Canadian Blog Awards: Round Deux!

Oh, lookie!
I’ve made it to Round Two of the Canadian Blog Awards with my nomination for Best Personal Blog in Canada.
COOL. Want to help me win? Vote again! :) You can do that HERE.
If you don’t do it for my writing, do it because I have an infected vampire bite on my neck (okay, maybe [...]

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Dec
03
2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I started the Bonus Resolution plan for FREE and I get a whole extra month of kicking ass and taking names! My 2010 started on December 1st!
It’s the Olympic year in Vancouver, you know. “Citius. Altius. Fortius.” Faster. Higher. Stronger.
Considering a couple years ago I weighed 65 pounds more, couldn’t run a block, do a [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Hygiene & Health, Journalling, Specifically Steff, weight loss | Tagged , , , , , | Comments (0)
Nov
27
2009

RANT: Guilt-Tripping: What Friends Don’t Do

I had a classic big ol’ Twitter fight with an insensitive fuckwit last night, who I haven’t blocked because I’m not in Grade 5 anymore, but it basically came down to me saying, “No, I’m not coming out because I need some time to myself.”
Long story short: I’ve been up at 5 the last four [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Etiquette, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, Specifically Steff, Steff Rants, Twitter, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (3)
Oct
23
2009

Why Do I Blog? Some Thoughts.

After editing this, it occurs to me it should be two separate posts, both developed more fully, but that’s a lot of work. I’ll try to expand a bit on the “social” aspect, or even the socio-political aspects I allude to, in another posting, and I’ll post this here & now as-is. That way, you [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Communication, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Specifically Steff | Tagged , , , , , , | Comments (3)
Oct
16
2009

Inspiration, you WHORE.

Inspiration is a fickle slut.
My muse, she ain’t faithful at all. Nuh-uh. She out there all friendly and wanderin’. Ain’t never ’round when I needs it.
That dilemma has been two-fold for me of late. You see, I wanna write a book. In fact, I know kinda what I want to write. You, my friends, need [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Journalling, Twitter, keeping it real, writing | Tagged , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Oct
03
2009

Giving Myself a Headshake

I’m having one of those days.
I’m having a dislike-myself day. Or is it discontent with myself? ‘Cos I like myself way much and feel it’s worth taking action to end some of the feelings I’ve got today.
The content of my internal dialogue today is staying internal, I’m afraid. No nitty-gritty deets for you people.
But this [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Humour, Journalling, Life 101, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Psychology & Moods, Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Specifically Steff, keeping it real | Comments (1)
Sep
23
2009

Losing Pounds? Losing Wounds.

I wonder, sometimes, how life knows to get the timing just right, so that, if you’re paying attention, you can use the synchronicity to really gain some wisdom.
Luckily, I tend to pay attention.
Tuesday has been “headtrip day” for two weeks now. Yesterday was jam-packed — a night of chatting with one of my best friends [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, Hygiene & Health, Journalling, Psychology & Moods, Specifically Steff, fitness, keeping it real, weight loss | Comments (4)
Sep
17
2009

Filler

We use words like “empty” and “full” to judge qualities of life –
“Oh, he’s amazing, he leads such a full life!”
“Wow. I feel so sorry for her when she leaves to go home, she looks so sad, like her night and life are so empty.”
…But how much of those “full” lives is filler? And how [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, General, Life 101, Lifestyle, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , | Comments (0)
Sep
16
2009

Morning

It’s grey and oppressive, a long day awaits. But it’s somehow all better this morning.
And that’s the beautiful thing about “better”: It’s subjective. You want it, you got it.
I believe in owning my moods, though. I spiralled into a pretty dark place last night. You got the sanitized, for-public-eyes version. Me, I did some serious [...]

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