Category Archives: keeping it real

Mar
16
2010

RetroSteff: Why 40% of Women Don’t Masturbate

When this blog first began, for its first year or so, it was all sex or relationships that I was writing about. Most of the time, anyhow, as I kept my “personal” writing on another blog. Somewhere along the way, I gave up separating the two.
But as I’m getting into writing my book, something’s got [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Lifestyle, Masturbation, Modern Feminism, Orgasm Trouble, Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Sex, Women's Department, feminism | Comments (0)
Mar
09
2010

The Piano Has Been Drinking*

So too has the blogger.
And, boy, has my body decided it’s had enough.
I became social again last year, which effectively doubled the amount I’d been drinking. It became far too regular, and had it not been for the drinking, I’d probably have lost more weight instead of just having maintained my numbers for a year [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Hygiene & Health, Specifically Steff, Uncategorized, fitness | Tagged , , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Feb
26
2010

The Dark Side: A Brief Look At My Descent

Today, Andrew Koenig, a respected stand-up comedian and former “background” star in Growing Pains, was found dead, having committed suicide, and not too far from the happy Olympicky goings-on here in Vancouver.
Depression was known to plague Koenig. He got off his anti-depressants sometime last year, and clearly the rest is a story still developing.
I’ve been [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Life 101, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Psychology & Moods, Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Society, Specifically Steff, adhd | Comments (11)
Feb
23
2010

Soon The Olympics Leave

It’s Day 12 of the Winter Olympics here in Vancouver. Four will remain. The insanity is everywhere. Here, look at this shot from last Saturday night. Something like 20 blocks of the city looked like that. Needless to say, such a long, wild ride comes with Olympic highs… and Olympic lows. Here’s a look at [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Journalling, Specifically Steff, Steff Rants | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (6)
Feb
17
2010

In Case of My Death, Read

I’m familiar with fear. Oh, am I familiar with fear.
In fact, I’m not actually a person. I’m a giant ‘fraidy-cat. Yup. A pussy, wimp, gutless turd.
I do it well.

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Life 101, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Specifically Steff | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Feb
13
2010

Further Thoughts Against Olympics “Protesters”

The Games opened yesterday with the start of what I suspect will persist throughout the Games — agitators doing everything they could to dampen the party.
As the ceremonies occurred, protesters tried to push their way there, and the inevitable clash with authorities ensued. Two cops suffered minor injuries, but no protesters were harmed.
Here’s my thinking, [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Current Events, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, Steff Rants | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (45)
Feb
11
2010

An Open Letter to Anti-2010-Olympics Protestors

Hi. I’m Steffani, and I’m a lifelong Vancouverite.
I voted “YES” in the Olympics plebiscite “back in the day,” when we lowly democratic peons had the chance to vote on the once-every-four-years-party that, you know, would cost a few bucks to put on.
Now, I know, that voting day was such a sunny, beautiful day so many [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Current Events, Society, Specifically Steff, Steff Rants | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (43)
Feb
09
2010

Valentine’s Day: All My Thoughts

Valentine’s day looms and I’ve deftly avoided the topic by not posting new stuff lately. Brilliant!
But I guess it’s time for my annual rant against the Big Machine and the perpetuation of the belief that, hey, if it’s love, it’s worth going broke for.
I know men buy gifts because they feel obligated. I know women [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, Steff Rants | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Feb
06
2010

10 Years On: Rembering My Dead Mother

I haven’t been funny in days.
I’m moody and full of vitamin-Cunt tonight.
I couldn’t figure it out.
What’s eating me? Why am I spiralling into a darker and darker place? Why do I hate the idea of attending any of the 3 parties to which I was invited tonight? Why does the idea of just being civil [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Specifically Steff | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (5)
Jan
29
2010

RANT: Labels Kill Sexuality

Four years ago I wrote a posting about cheating and in it I had a little rant about being called an “older woman” by the letter-writer when I was only 32. The posting is here, and today I deleted a comment that referred to the rant-within-the-posting with this comment that I’ve chosen to delete for [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Communication, Lifestyle, Modern Feminism, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Oral Sex, Specifically Steff, Uncategorized, sexuality | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (5)
Jan
27
2010

There’s A Post-Injury World I Live In

And it’s somewhere in between Uncertainland and Hopeville.
Most of it is of my own doing, too. Having burnt out with EVERYTHING last July, I just walked away from most of my obligations, organized  fitness, and social life. It’s been EXACTLY what I needed to do, but my back has been iffy from time to time [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Specifically Steff, fitness | Tagged , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Jan
23
2010

A Moment of Clarity, A Project to Start

I’m at the tail-end of a ceremonial shot of Jack Daniels. I’m celebrating.
This past week, I’ve figured out a structure for my book, and the start of the order of content and how to make it marketably different from most of the non-fiction offerings out there.
I want my book to be profoundly literate. I want [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Being me, Journalling, Specifically Steff, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , | Comments (0)
Jan
18
2010

RANT: “Whine, Whine. #FML! Fuck My Life!”

ED. NOTE: This posting is meant for people who say “FML” and mean it. Like they say, people love the internet because they get to whine on it, and that’s fine. Go ahead, grumble. Just be interesting about it! And don’t be some snivelling fuckwit hyperbolizing and going “FML” because you woke up 30 minutes [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, Humour, Life 101, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, Steff Rants, Twitter, existentialism | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (11)
Jan
14
2010

In Which Steff Talks About Her ADHD

I found out last Friday that my company’s letting us work from home when the Winter Olympics rolls into town in a couple weeks. My office is in the thick of Olympics Central in downtown Vancouver, between the major “live event” locations and all the sports stadiums. I was already having panic attacks about getting [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Hygiene & Health, Journalling, Specifically Steff | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (12)
Jan
08
2010

From There to Here

In 2007, I spent 7 months working for a toxic employer.
By the time I left my job, I was close to the highest I’ve ever weighed, at my most negative and always whining, feeling sorry for myself, and feeling pretty hopeless about everything, especially about writing, which I’d been sucking at for nearly a year [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Specifically Steff, existentialism, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Jan
04
2010

Cashing My Reality Check

Whew. Here we are. January 4, 2010.
I’d given myself a good excuse not to write this morning: “I don’t feel like it”; but now I feel like I need to put some stuff down. Not for you, not because I said I’d try to write 10 pieces on Getting Shit Done in 2010, but because [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Journalling, Specifically Steff, fitness, weight loss | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Jan
02
2010

10 for 2010: Mindset for the Munch-Challenge

Weightloss is one of those things. Some fail at it — or almost succeed then fail — repeatedly until they finally Get It. The disease of morbid obesity, or even the dreaded beer-belly syndrome, is almost always as a result of one or both of two things: ignorance or lack of accounting.
Me, I was both [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Eating Disorder, Hygiene & Health, Life 101, fitness, weight loss | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Dec
20
2009

Thoughts On Brittany Murphy, Death, & Anorexia

Rumour has it that Brittany Murphy is dead at 32 from cardiac arrest.
Heart attack, in case you didn’t know, is one of the most common demises after long battles with eating disorders. Why?

“When anorexia has become this severe, the heart is often damaged. Not only is there not enough body fat to keep internal organs [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Eating Disorder, Hollywood, Hygiene & Health, Life 101, Loving and Knowing Yourself, Modern Feminism, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Society, Steff Rants, weight loss | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (8)
Dec
17
2009

Writing about Writing

Let me just say this before I get too far into my thoughts here:

I know Canada is small, with about 10% of the US population.
I doubt many people vote in the Canadian Blog Awards.
I’ve checked my in-box, and I’ve still not heard from the Pulitzer Committee.

And yet I’ll write this.
______________
The Canadian Blog Awards nomination for [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Specifically Steff, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Dec
16
2009

Things to Remember This Christmas

Since 1998, I’ve had every kind of Christmas imaginable. Lonely, magnificent, rich, broke, injured, healthy, in love, out of love. Had ‘em all.
I was raised to believe in the magic of Christmas. We’d have a houseful of people singing carols, Dad would make his famous cardiac eggnog, the house was full of decorations and laughter, [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Current Events, General, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, Specifically Steff | Tagged , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Dec
11
2009

Flirting Fail: In Which Steff ‘Fesses Up

At the tender young age of 36, I find myself having to learn infinite new things because of the ways in which I’ve changed myself over the last two years, after a lifetime spent insecure, unhealthy, and fat.
One of those things I’m gonna have to learn now? Flirting. Truth be told, I’m a pretty terrible [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being single, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Self-Love & Self-Esteem, Specifically Steff, weight loss | Comments (5)
Dec
06
2009

6 Decembre 1989: Remembering a Formative Tragedy

I was 16 on December 6th, 1989, when gunman Marc Lepine stormed into Montreal’s Ecole Polytechnique, an engineering school.
When the blood had spilled and screams for the 14 dead women faded into muffled tears, it was found that the gunman had left a note explaining his actions — he’d wanted to kill feminists for making [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, History, Modern Feminism, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Politics, Sexism, Society, Specifically Steff, Women's Department, feminism | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (4)