Category Archives: Specifically Steff

Feb
06
2010

10 Years On: Rembering My Dead Mother

I haven’t been funny in days.
I’m moody and full of vitamin-Cunt tonight.
I couldn’t figure it out.
What’s eating me? Why am I spiralling into a darker and darker place? Why do I hate the idea of attending any of the 3 parties to which I was invited tonight? Why does the idea of just being civil [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (5)
Jan
29
2010

RANT: Labels Kill Sexuality

Four years ago I wrote a posting about cheating and in it I had a little rant about being called an “older woman” by the letter-writer when I was only 32. The posting is here, and today I deleted a comment that referred to the rant-within-the-posting with this comment that I’ve chosen to delete for [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Communication, Lifestyle, Modern Feminism, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Oral Sex, Uncategorized, keeping it real, sexuality | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (5)
Jan
27
2010

There’s A Post-Injury World I Live In

And it’s somewhere in between Uncertainland and Hopeville.
Most of it is of my own doing, too. Having burnt out with EVERYTHING last July, I just walked away from most of my obligations, organized  fitness, and social life. It’s been EXACTLY what I needed to do, but my back has been iffy from time to time [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, fitness, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Jan
23
2010

A Moment of Clarity, A Project to Start

I’m at the tail-end of a ceremonial shot of Jack Daniels. I’m celebrating.
This past week, I’ve figured out a structure for my book, and the start of the order of content and how to make it marketably different from most of the non-fiction offerings out there.
I want my book to be profoundly literate. I want [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Being me, Journalling, keeping it real, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , | Comments (0)
Jan
19
2010

Why I Love My ADHD

I’m going to be writing more about ADHD over the next while. I started last week with this posting here.
Seems to me too many people are all shame-filled about their ADHD. What the fuck is that about?
Here, take your stereotypes and shove it. Know what my ADHD doesn’t make me do? It doesn’t make [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Being me, Education, Journalling, Twitter, Uncategorized, adhd, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (5)
Jan
14
2010

In Which Steff Talks About Her ADHD

I found out last Friday that my company’s letting us work from home when the Winter Olympics rolls into town in a couple weeks. My office is in the thick of Olympics Central in downtown Vancouver, between the major “live event” locations and all the sports stadiums. I was already having panic attacks about getting [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Hygiene & Health, Journalling, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (12)
Jan
08
2010

From There to Here

In 2007, I spent 7 months working for a toxic employer.
By the time I left my job, I was close to the highest I’ve ever weighed, at my most negative and always whining, feeling sorry for myself, and feeling pretty hopeless about everything, especially about writing, which I’d been sucking at for nearly a year [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Self-Love & Self-Esteem, existentialism, keeping it real, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Jan
07
2010

Bittersweet Winter Mornings & Their Longings

A little after waking, a furiously beautiful sunrise lit my little part of the world up. Red, red, red, as far as the eye could see. Fire on the horizon, exploding across the cottony clouds that spread west over the Pacific.
Some shivers, some cold toes, but it was worth heading out to stand on my [...]

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Jan
04
2010

Cashing My Reality Check

Whew. Here we are. January 4, 2010.
I’d given myself a good excuse not to write this morning: “I don’t feel like it”; but now I feel like I need to put some stuff down. Not for you, not because I said I’d try to write 10 pieces on Getting Shit Done in 2010, but because [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Journalling, fitness, keeping it real, weight loss | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Dec
23
2009

My Memories of Christmas

I’ve decided to do a sentimental posting in honour of Christmas.
I don’t have a lot going on this year, but that’s how I wanted it… too many plans would have me emotionally overwhelmed. I’d rather think “My, those two weeks look empty. I’ll have to drum up some fun” rather than “Jesus, what have I [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Autobiographical, Best of Steff, Journalling | Comments (4)
Dec
17
2009

Writing about Writing

Let me just say this before I get too far into my thoughts here:

I know Canada is small, with about 10% of the US population.
I doubt many people vote in the Canadian Blog Awards.
I’ve checked my in-box, and I’ve still not heard from the Pulitzer Committee.

And yet I’ll write this.
______________
The Canadian Blog Awards nomination for [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), keeping it real, writing | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Comments (1)
Dec
16
2009

Things to Remember This Christmas

Since 1998, I’ve had every kind of Christmas imaginable. Lonely, magnificent, rich, broke, injured, healthy, in love, out of love. Had ‘em all.
I was raised to believe in the magic of Christmas. We’d have a houseful of people singing carols, Dad would make his famous cardiac eggnog, the house was full of decorations and laughter, [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Current Events, General, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , | Comments (2)
Dec
11
2009

Flirting Fail: In Which Steff ‘Fesses Up

At the tender young age of 36, I find myself having to learn infinite new things because of the ways in which I’ve changed myself over the last two years, after a lifetime spent insecure, unhealthy, and fat.
One of those things I’m gonna have to learn now? Flirting. Truth be told, I’m a pretty terrible [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being single, Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Self-Love & Self-Esteem, keeping it real, weight loss | Comments (5)
Dec
06
2009

6 Decembre 1989: Remembering a Formative Tragedy

I was 16 on December 6th, 1989, when gunman Marc Lepine stormed into Montreal’s Ecole Polytechnique, an engineering school.
When the blood had spilled and screams for the 14 dead women faded into muffled tears, it was found that the gunman had left a note explaining his actions — he’d wanted to kill feminists for making [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, History, Modern Feminism, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Politics, Sexism, Society, Women's Department, feminism, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (4)
Dec
03
2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I started the Bonus Resolution plan for FREE and I get a whole extra month of kicking ass and taking names! My 2010 started on December 1st!
It’s the Olympic year in Vancouver, you know. “Citius. Altius. Fortius.” Faster. Higher. Stronger.
Considering a couple years ago I weighed 65 pounds more, couldn’t run a block, do a [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Hygiene & Health, Journalling, weight loss | Tagged , , , , , | Comments (0)
Dec
01
2009

RANT: Can I *JUST* Talk?

It’s worth reading the note at the end of this if you really ARE in my life, because what I want online versus from people in the flesh are very different. Thanks.
This morning I’m feeling a bit hamstrung by the life I’ve carved for myself.
I know even saying this is going to ruffle some feathers, [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Journalling, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Steff Rants, Twitter, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Comments (3)
Nov
27
2009

RANT: Guilt-Tripping: What Friends Don’t Do

I had a classic big ol’ Twitter fight with an insensitive fuckwit last night, who I haven’t blocked because I’m not in Grade 5 anymore, but it basically came down to me saying, “No, I’m not coming out because I need some time to myself.”
Long story short: I’ve been up at 5 the last four [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Being me, Etiquette, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, Steff Rants, Twitter, keeping it real | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , | Comments (3)
Nov
18
2009

“Hope” Ain’t a Four-Letter Word No Mo’

Shit, man, it’s over! The loan from hell! It’s OVER.
I has a shiny new loan. With mo’ money, fully consolidated debt, but much lower payments, but only adding 18 months on. Insane! With it, a new lease on life.
I’m not gonna be all moneybags all of a sudden. No. The only outward sign of change [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Journalling, keeping it real | Comments (2)
Nov
16
2009

“YOU’RE APPROVED!” Now, Sign Your Life Away.

I went to the bank Saturday. I told them to give me money. I fucked up my last loan, and my loans officer fucked it up even worse. It was a partial-debt-consolidation loan where the banker didn’t make my overdraft go poof. No sense consolidating debt if you’re continuing to live in your overdraft. Pity [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, Journalling, Life 101, Opinion (Editorial & Commentary), Society, keeping it real | Comments (1)
Nov
11
2009

A Smattering: Morning Topics & A Cup of Joe

I have a cup of coffee left, and I’m willing to ignore it for your sake. I don’t really know what to write about specifically, as my mind is kind of  the proverbial whirlwind. Let’s just have a potpourri session, shall we, with a little here and there?

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Nov
09
2009

Mindfucks: $1.75 and Yer Good To Blow

After all the drama of yesterday’s posting, I weighed myself, and I’m exactly where I was 3 weeks ago, which is at a 7-pound gain after losing 72 pounds. But I have less muscle tone, though.
And I now remember washing a load of clothes on hot. Oops.

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in weight loss | Tagged , , , | Comments (0)
Nov
08
2009

Choosing Success

I’m having one of those honest-with-myself days. They’re never very much fun, are they?
I’ve been getting increasingly stressed out about several areas of my life, just because it’s coming down to the crunch and probably also because I’m incredibly skilled at making things more difficult than they need to be.
As a result, I’ve had sort [...]

By A Scribe Called Steff | Also posted in Dimestore Philosophy, Hygiene & Health, Journalling, Psychology & Moods, Self-Love & Self-Esteem, keeping it real, weight loss, writing | Comments (1)